I think this forum is slow because after our loved ones die, we shrink away from exhaustion. I had shrunk away before he died because I was so overwhelmed... Dad had frontal lobe with Parkinson's, and had lots of mini strokes over the years. I feel so bad. I keep seeing his little brown eyes popping open when I called, "dad!" on his final days. He tried. He so tried to live. I've come to forgive him for all the years I was mad at him.

So true!

I think we just need a break after everything we have been through. I know I only come to the forum once a week or so now. Before I felt like I needed help daily. Now I can go days without thinking about it. Then it slams me again.

I know what you mean. Sometimes, I feel like I would just be repeating myself over and over about missing my mom. I still come to the forum and read the Caregivers Forum too, it is still providing me some valuable insight (or perhaps hindsight) as to what actually happened along my mom's journey with AD. It helps me sort things out.

Mari

I have found through the years caring for Patty that I wasn't always able to read all the news on the Caregiver Forum as it made me so sad that I had to stand back and wait until I could read and write again. After Patty died I came to this forum and found another way to find comfort and give some back. There have been times I don't read or write, yet other times I need so much to communicate my thoughts. Tonight I find I want to read others notes and communicate to you for you. Expression can come and go. Many will come back after busying themselves with other parts of their lives. When they no longer need to grieve here, that may be good, as it is a sign they can move onto the living again.