I ran across a picture of my mom and the grief hit so very hard. She died August 8th and I miss her every single day. I feel this deep pain of wanting to see her again, talk to her again-just one more time, but that will never happen and it is so very difficult to accept.

I try not to feel regret, but I do-why didn't I see her more, why didn't I appreciate her more. I want her back and it hurts so much.

Lisa: The number 8 was my good luck number, now all it reminds me of is the day my mom died. Weird right! We are going to come across so many reminders. The reason being is they were such a big part of our lives right. Last night watching Dancing with the Stars I remember how she loved that show. I made a memory book with photos of her life & it made me feel good to see what a great life she did have, try it. I am also on this waiting list to see a medium like John Edwards hoping to get to hear from her. Some people might think its stupid but its what I want to do. I also went to the cemetary this weekend to bring her a Rose. It is so hard, we all have regrets, woulda , coulda , shoulda, thats life. I had a talk with my husband after the cemetary & he told me he also felt bad because he promised her he would never put her in a facility & feels he let her down. We also both know we did all we could & know we gave her some good memories & took care of her the best. If it wasnt for us where would they be. I remember some people who never had family come to see them, that is real sad. You take care of yourself & remember the good times you had with her.

Dear Lisa, August 8th was so recent. It is only the beginning of October. So, try to be gentle with yourself. Your wounds, grief and all are still so fresh.
Hoping you find the support you need here.

Hi Lisa,
Just want to say I know and I care.

Mari

Hello Lisa,
It is still too soon.
Lupe is still with me, but her mind doesn't understand, so saying important things has been over with for a few yrs.
Your mom was in such a bad way right before she died, that conversations were one-sided.

I often wonder when Lupe woke up and didn't know her past or what she was.
I wonder a lot...

But you just need to be good to yourself.

Dear Lisa,

Grief is very difficult. I remember after my husband died I thought of so many things I should have done and didn't!

We do the best we can with what we have. Please, try to find a support group to help you with your grief. Your grief is fresh and raw!

Thinking of you.

Lisa, I know about remainders. Just this week I ran across name/address labels of mom who passed mid-May of this year. It just gave me such sadness see them. At the same time I really have not focus on regrets; they serve me no good purpose. What has happened has happened and I can’t change it's pass. I’m putting my energies on positive memories of her before the illness came about.

You’re a good daughter do try to focus on good memories for your sake. I’m sorry your are hurting so.