Mommy - I'm begging you...PLEASE don't be sick!! WHY do all of these horrible things seem to keep happening to you??? I want you back - the way it use to be. PLZ Mom, HERE my crys!! You jokingly said through out all of our lives, "I would always be attached to your umbilical cord." That was 'OUR' thing! Out of 4 kids - I would always be your bb girl.
PLZ don't let things change! Hang on mom! I know you feel me, you feel my pain because I came from within you. Know matter how old we get, no matter what battles come our way - we always feel eachother's sorrow.

As you unexpectedly lie in the hospital bed today with a new problem that could be devastating - I'm begging you... PLEASE don't get anything else that we can't contol. I'm so far away now - I want you both here. My Mom & Dad (where they belong)... close to me.

My heart is aching - it's heavy & I find myself reverting to my childhood wanting my Mommy again... all young & healthy to wipe away all of my tears & sorrow. Wipe my tears & hold me & tell me everything will be ok Mom.... PLZ - I'm begging you! I sometime's see that woman in you & I long for the lost days of which are no more. Now, all I have is to cry in silence & be strong for you just as you have for me.

I will stand strong for you, I will listen to you, I will be what you were for me.... EVERYTHING!

Oh BBgirl, I am so sorry, your post not only brought tears, it brought sobs. I have been the journey you are on with both of my parents. Now they are both gone and I will always be so glad that I did stay strong for them. I miss each of them, but I have no regrets about the care I provided. Stay strong, when you feel the need for help or support, come here, it does help. The hospice nurse who came the day mom died, about 6 weeks ago, gave me a big hug and told me I had given mom a great gift. It didn't feel like it at the time, but it has now begun to feel that way. Keep thinking of this as giving back for all that they have given you. Gentle hugs to you BBGirl, I can tell you will do fine. It will be hard, but you can do it.

Thank you for those encouraging words debbie!! They come at a particularly crucial time. Today was really rough! Things just seem to be getting more & more complicated & although I'd like to SCREAM & cry... I remain calm for both of my parents - being that (I’m sure), they are feeling the same way! Poor babies.

And my poor Dad – he’s a complete wreck without my mom around. She’s only down the road a bit, but that doesn’t stop this man who just had a major stroke last year, to be up nights worrying & crying for her as well. After all, he is so dependant on her… and visa versa, since she’s been diagnosed & living with this HORRIBLE disease!

I really HATE that things will NEVER be the same again. I want my parents back, but… I understand. As mom says; “getting old REALLY sucks” & she is SO right!!

I realize now that we can’t always have what we want… so we better enjoy ‘what we have’ while it’s good, AND while it’s here! As children, we complain that things never go our way – and although it’s ugly, I’m seeing a sequel here!

I treasure them both... sick or not! I love them with every breath & only pray that things go easier for them during this difficult time, since I can’t make it “all better” the way that they did when I was sick or ailing.

I agree with everyone on this thread - I miss the way both my parents were and try to be strong for them. Mom has AD and Dad has Parkinsons & has had a couple of strokes. They are so attached to each other and seem to need each other's strength to continue! I have noticed that lately I don't cry and seem to just feel numb - is that normal?? They are both in the same facility (side by side) I visit almost daily, take them out regularly and spend as much time with them as possible. I seem to be on this treadmill of doing what needs to get done and taking care of them, even though they are in a facility - we still take care of our parents (there are 3 siblings) - I am concerned about the numbness I feel and know that one day all the emotions will probably come spilling out all at once! ugh!

Dear bb,
I'm hoping today is better. Seems like no matter how old you get, there's no substitute for a mother's love. :-(

You're right... there is absolutely NO substitute for your mom!
Thx F.C.

Her 4-ever bbgirl

I just joined this website and am in tears to hear my own life described so well by others

Welcome. I have recently joined too & it certainly helps to know that there are others who understand & can give encouragement. Feel free to vent as well & we will be there to listen.

bbgirl

You're right bb girl.......and you're not alone, there is no Love greater than a Mothers Love.........

LIFE IS SHORT....PRAY HARD

Have this bumper sticker on my car.

ZOEY M

You're right... I think that's why it's SO hard for all of us who are struggling with our mother's health to cope. There is NO GREATEER connection that human's have than their mother with whom we've come from! What a beautiful gift, not only for us as their children - but for the mom's as well.
I love mine!!!!
bbgirl